Thursday, 29 April 2010
losing my shit
I feel like I am losing my shit. I am floating above, or parallel to the world, and can't see straight. I am always tired. I don't have any energy. Everything often feels pointless. And yet, I often feel angry, and annoyed. I have also gained weight, and can't lose it. I don't want to do anything anymore. I am feeling overwhelmed. Yet, I am not worried. I know that I am not R-E-A-L-L-Y going crazy. I am just losing my shit. And I want to just stop. Sleep. Not do anything. For a long time. Not have anyone need me, want me, call me, ask me anything. I want to just BE.