motherly guilt

Lucas has been with my in-laws for 3 of the last 6 weeks. I think my mother-in-law thinks I am a terrible mother. She once said that when her kids were young, she couldn't be more than 30 minutes without them. She would never have let her kids away overnight. She said this proudly.

I have to admit that I did really miss Lucas this past stay. But it was the 3rd stay. I barely thought of him during the other stays. I do think that it is because I am alone-deprived, and over-tired, and not because I am a terrible mother. But still, the doubt remains - am I not fit to be a mother? Will me kids reproach me for not being an all-consuming mother as I should.

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