boredom

My father and stepmom tell me that it is good for kids to be bored sometimes. That it helps them cope with boredom in their future. To just be. To face themselves. To see their parents in the daily grind. To unconsciously soak up the life that makes up their memories of childhood.

But I feel guilty when I am not actively stimulating them, playing with them, teaching them something, giving them attention. And I feel like I do all that perfect mom stuff so little. And often, I am not interested in doing it. And thinking about my dad's words of wisdom is no help, really. Deep down, I know that I just want to be sleeping, reading, watching movies, hanging out. Motherhood is hard!